After many sleepless nights of twisting and turning on bed. After holding on to the calculator pressing and pressing to calculate my salary. After being panic. After being reaaaaaaally confused.
I have decided not to go for Kpop party. I realized I love clothes more than anything :/ YIKES ! Both me and Vanna decided that it was a uhmm good choice ? LOL Plus, I met BEAST before. Just that G.NA is the heart aching one :( Its really weird how "I turned into emo queen in the previous post because of this & I'm being all whateffs about this now ahahahah.
But, decisions made !
What now ? CANT WAIT TO GO SHOPPING !!!! TEEEHEE :)
New Years on the next post. I promise !
& lets just end it with a picture of me :) and you, its time for an end.
Why the sad face ? Might not be able to go for Digi Kpop Party :( No, not money problem. No, not transport problem. I can worry about that later. My greatest concern now is to get em tickets. Might not be able to attend this Sunday's launch at One Utama cause Vanna is probably working. So its really big change of not going.
Cause, Im afraid they only sell the ticks on Sunday and not any other day. and so, if I dont attend, high chance ticks will all be gone since the launch is from 12pm-8pm. Thats like the whole day.
Done crying. Gotta move on :( Think positive. Think positive. You met B2ST before Jane. You met Junhyung before.
Nuuuu, no one can understand. Come on, its BEAST and G.NA. Junhyung and G.NA's collab will rock the stage man and I aint gonna be there.
Oh wells, I dont know when this emo state will be over.
Things friends would do just to let you know that, you actually have a friend.
1. Remembering your birthday
2. Walks beside you even when the whole world shuts on you
3. Me : and.. the due date is tomorrow ? A : yeaaaah Me : whaaaaat ! A : Have you done anything ? Me : OMG NO. A : Nudge me in msn whenever you need help.
sometime later
*One new text message*
A : Hey Jane, I wont be online for the whole day today. Please call me if you need any help I'll be here.
4. Simple conversations that leaves you laughing with an aching tummy
5. Inside jokes (Somefink like GOOD MORNING TOWELS LOL )
6. When you share things
7. When you share secrets
8. Sleepovers
IM LAZY TO TYPE ANYMORE BUT THE LAST ONE WILL BE
9. WHEN THEY ARE THROWING ONE FREAKING HUGE PARTY SPECIALLY FOR YOU JUST COZ YOU ARE ONLY TURNING 19 ONCE.
Dont get what I mean ? Well, which friend of yours is actually willing to borrow you a house just for you when he or she will be in deep shit if anything happens ? and when I say deep shit, its freaking deep shit coz hey what are we talking about here ? A party with over 40 people invading your house. Alcohol involved. Need I go further ? I dont think so.
Plan your birthday in the mid of assignment due dates and getting excited about it.
Well I have friends like that because Im awesome like that nyaahahaha.
So in other words, THIS FRIDAAAAAAAAY. Be there or your missing out a whole lot. and I like how the beginning of this post is totally useless. HAHA YOU GOT ME.
and gosh IM REALLY SORRY. I didnt update on Malacca trip at all. Which happened in July. and its already October now wth. but the only thing Im looking forward to is 7th and 8th of October for now :D
and thats your blogger incase you forgot how the hell she looks like Sarawak was fun Brother's wedding went really well Assignments are still ughhh as annoying as ever
and the other important part of my life (lol ahahah) I cant take my breathe breathe breathe Im still loving junhyung, what are you gonna do about it hmm ? :D
Till the next post BYE BYE !
listening to
Seriously Leehom, I heard you are gay. The papers been saying people saw you in some gay bar. IT BETTER NOT BE TRUE COZ YOUR GODDAMN HOT.
Why hello there sleeping beauty. Lets wear our acid wash jeans together one day :) ahahah As the title says, like always, please be patient with me dear readers. University is REALLY being a pain in the ass. Semester 2 is pure torture. I thank god I fangirl-ed so much during the one and a half month semester break. But oh come on, its never enough. One day without a PC for fangirls = SUICIDE.
" You have no time to update your blog but you have all the time in the world to fangirl "
Exactly. You know me too well. Thats coz I rather fangirl than updating a blog that hardly anyone reads. Other than that, I cant wait to get my hands on G.Na's album MBLAQ just had their goodbye stage :( I'll miss Seungho so bad B2ST is having their comeback in September. Hence, the drastic change of hairstlye. Junbaby gone blonde. A very kind SG Beauty been subbing BEAST Idol Maid. You dont know how much I appreciate her hard work. Trust me, subbing was never an easy job. I know how it feels thats coz I used to sub Super Junior M variety shows, MVs and interviews when Im a subber in SuperJunior forum. Im at episode 13 for God of Study Im at episode 4 for Heading to the Ground and its stuck there since July I should stop shopping
& for now,
I should stop blabbering and start doing my mind map kthanksbai.
So basically GDE might bring SHINee or ZE:A. M.E is bringing MBLAQ. Sony is bringing 2PM. Marctensia might bring CN BLUE. SS501's hyungjun is comng too plus JayPark is coming with AOM and UMM has hinted at a double-bill event combining BEAST and 4minute. and and and ZOMG THE MEGA YEAR END BASH WITH KOREAN ACTS ZOMGASFDH...HJLLASDSA. Im so excited I could die. ASDSAFSDAF
So tell me what is this ?
I cant imagine what will happen to me if both Seungho and Junhyung appear right in front of my face.
LIFE IS GOOD !!! :DDDD
ps : I'll update about Malacca and PD Trip soon kay. Sorry my dear readers. Ok college starts tomorrow. How am I gonna sleep while being so excited ?! KYAAAAA again, LIFE IS DAEBAK ! :D
My right eye is swollen :( Can I kiss it ? Have you been reading my fan fics ?!!! YOU #%$^#$^&# !
LOL
HELLO thats me smiling like a retard out of overload of Kimchii. HAHAH.
After reading over 50 Junkwang and Junseung fics, I decided to write my own one. LOL yeah I cant believe it either. Wrote it during work out of boredom. I wrote it from a third person's point of view coz I've always love fics writing from a third person's point of view. So here is my very first fic written by myself TEEHEE.
(Copy-paste from forum lol Im lazy like that !) Author's Note : First and foremost, this is my VERY FIRST FIC. Compared to other super good fics I read before, Im still way behind time to catch up. Comments are much appreciated. I wrote this during work out of boredom. & I guess the B2ST fever in me still have not died down yet since the day I met them for the showcase. Hence, the formation of this fic. and yes, Junhyung is my ultimate bias. Lastly, drop a friendly comment and I'll give you chocolate ice cream ! :) heeeeee.
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‘Jun Hyung ah!,’ you scream with all your voice, your throat burning. ‘Run Hyo Rim ah ! Run ! Now ! ‘ was all you could hear from him. You couldn’t fight your tears anymore, no matter how hard you try to keep your promise to Jun Hyung, that you would not cry no more. This was the fifth time Jun Hyung got into a fight. Because of you.All because of you. You wish you had never met Jun Hyung because you feel like you are ruining every millisecond of his life. It was your entire fault. Always has been.
This boy, Yong Jun Hyung. You thought of all the flashbacks. You met him on the street. He was dancing with other street dancers out there. Every girl, crazy about him. Even in school. Even till now. All you remember was, he pops like a professional, almost like your idol, MBLAQ’s Yang Seung Ho. And from that day onwards, being at Apgujong street at 8pm sharp became your daily routine. Just like a Korean drama, the one that hardly anyone believes in, he noticed you from afar and both of you came in contact the very first time where he saved you from the pervert in the bus.
You felt something grabbing your lower body but you were too afraid to voice out for help. You were shaking in fear and all you did was move from where you were standing. You felt the touch again. Tears started forming. The bus came to a halt and you were pulled out of the bus with great force, your wrist hurt so much. And again you were too afraid to even scream. You couldn’t see the figure that pulled you out of the bus but his hand felt warm and you felt safe.
‘WHY DIDNT YOU SAY A THING ?!'You heard a voice yelling at you. You were still shaking, looking at the cement ground, sobbing real hard. ‘I..d...don’t..know’ was all you could utter.
You felt a pair of arms wrap themselves around you. You gave in even though he was a complete stranger because a hug was all you needed at that moment. You felt so safe that you wanted to stay like that forever, resting your head on his firm chest, listening to his soothing heartbeat.
‘Let me walk you home,’ he said. And since then, walking you home became a daily routine for him. You never asked why but he was just there. Always getting off two stops earlier to walk you home, almost always using‘I need to exercise’as an excuse. All you know was you, knowing him by Yong Jun Hyung, a sunbae in school. Someone you trust so much. Too much to even admit it.
All the memories, all the hugs, kisses, cookies, pikachus, morning calls, chocolates, theme parks, his ego and most importantly how much he got himself covered up with blood because of you. Again you reminded yourself, this was the fifth time that you were here, in the hospital, sitting by Junhyung’s side looking at him with all the bruises on his face, all the bandage, all the pain he went through. All because of you. You asked yourself, ‘This is the fifth time, just how many more to go Hyo Rim ah?’
You never hated your father much. Even after he left you, all alone. You never uttered a single word about his neglect towards you. Even when the loan sharks were after you, just because your father was nowhere to be found. You never slept in ease, always running, always hiding and begging for them to stop hitting Jun Hyung. Jun Hyung never failed to be there whenever you are screaming, running or hiding. He always knows when you are in trouble. He never fails to get himself hurt because of you. You can never bear to look at him being all covered with blood. You told him countless of times to leave you, but he never did. Never.Not even once.
You felt a thumb wiping your tears away from your cheeks and found Jun Hyung awake, trying hard to smile at you even though it hurts, because of the bruise near his lips. Before you could even utter a word, Jun Hyung placed his finger at your lips signaling you to remain silent.‘Never tell me to leave you again. Never,’said Jun Hyung.
More tears streamed down your face. You felt like the happiest girl, having Jun Hyung by your side.
Seungho is my favourite too, its impossible to leave him out LOL Its pretty short for a one-shot but I'll like to thank everyone who commented in respective forums ! I posted in Soompi, B2ST Rising, Soshified, Mysone and Absolute MBLAQ. Love all the response ! :) and also, thanks Vidya for editing it for me. Me love you and feel better kay :)
& whats a post without any of this Nothing much. Just that,
I CANT WAIT I CANT WAIT I CANT WAIT I CANT WAIT I CANT WAIT I CANT WAIT I CANT WAIT I CANT WAIT I CANT WAIT I CANT WAIT. CANNOT. I. CANNOT. WAIT. I SAY CANNOT LOL asdfghjkl SDGFSDGHGK. AND OMG ASDFGHJKL WTF BBQ I SENSE JUNKWANGGGGG ! zomg this is like a complete dejavu of me after watching MBLAQ's MV Teaser.
Yes. Just coz I love JunKwang that much. Sue me. LOL & even sleep deprive Junkachu look so good.
Thats it for now ! Im off for God of Study & Heading to the Ground and and and OHHH MY BEIJING FRIED RICE :)
Listening to
I had a major FML moment waiting for this full MV to be out. Other B2UTIES in B2ST Rising were telling me to head to bed and sleep & that Junhyung will be there once I wake up. Awwwwww LOL One of the many reasons I love friendly fans.
and OH I wanted to break G.NA's face but omg shes so awesome laaaaaa. Shes like a second Jang Ri In to me. Speaking of Jang Ri In, I miss her like hell. Lina too. Where have all of you been ?
Malacca & PD Trip coming up in next post ! :) BYE BYE everyone ! Dont forget to smile & be happy today ! LOL :)
I figured out its time for me to blog about BEAST showcase as promised. Since it happened two weeks ago. But hey, I did update a short one on it. LOL Coz I was too high on BEAST so it took me this long to actually blog about it and no, I'm not over with the B2ST fever yet. I dont know when it will be over or will it even be over LOL. Its a really long post ahead with my rants and complains about UMM other than my fangirling. I warned you.
The huge banner which I planned to steal. LOL FAIL.
Mini concert was on the 26th of June 2010. A Saturday. Which means I have work on that day. I texted my boss saying something came up and I cant work. She called me straight away saying I have to work because no one can replace me. So I was ready to lose my job for B2ST, although I love my job very much. Yes, thats how much I love BEAST. Go figure. But I guess its fate that another staff agreed to replace me. But boss told me the earliest I can leave is by 4pm. OH WELLS. So the day started off with me going to work. It was the SLOWEST 4 hours in my life. Clock strike 4pm. Grabbed my car keys and headed home. I was speeding at 110 cutting every cars with sudden change of lanes =/ VATEVAAAAA. Vanna came and pick me the moment I reached home. Met Kristin at the train station. Malaysian KTM suck balls. Train got delayed several times. So we waited and waited. We were worried shit. Concert is suppose to start at 7pm. By all means Malaysian time 7.30pm or 8pm. After transferring to Monorail and bla bla bla, we finally reached. andddd HOLY MOTHER OF COW. The crowd. I expected the amount of crowd but not that much. I guess its logical reflecting the total of 8000 votes from Malaysians to bring B2ST to Malaysia. Some waited from 6am. Well, I was suppose to be one of them if I dont have to work. Cis. Called Jason Goh of advertlets and collected my tickets. It was said before that those with B2ST Tshirt get to go in first and those without B2ST Tshirt will get to go in later. I scanned the crowd and there were no barriers nor poles to divide us dear B2UTIES. There wasnt even any queue. So basically, we were just one big mess. I swear we looked like a pile of shit for those looking from the airplane.
Try spotting me. Now you got what I mean by one big mess. ( picture credits to as mention in the picture )
We cut queue. Yes, we did. Leaving those Malay girls behind me giving me the cock stare. And so we waited and waited and waited. I lose count of how many hours I waited. All the pushing and smell and screaming.. It was 8pm and the gate was still not open. Everyone was chanting for refund. After that came the guard that said
" Those with B2ST Tshirt will go in first and those without the B2ST Tshirt will go in later. But if KL LIVE is full, Im sorry, you cant go in"
The moment I heard that, I was fighting with my tears. Me and my friends were those without the BEAST Tshirt. The gate was opened at around 8.30pm ? Where the concert is suppose to start at 7pm WTF. They let us go in pairs. They let some in and closed the gate and I swear waiting for the next time for them to open the gate took forever. I felt like half of my life was gone. My friends and I were quite behind, but not very behind. But I was already losing hope. My heart was in pieces ( LOL dramatic much ). Everyone was chanting for refund and I was just starring at my concert ticket thinking
" Ugh I dont want any refund, just let me see Gikwang & Junhyung please please please "
My concert ticket
Then came this part where I got really pissed. The part where EVERYONE started to faint. The thing is, if you faint, the guards will carry you in, which means you got in to KL Live without having to continue queuing. Ok fine, some girls fainted for real but some had really bad ass acting. There was this girl. She was "going to faint". One of the guards carried her and her sling bag slipped from her shoulder. She grabbed it before it hit the ground. Damnnn that was some damn fast reflex from you girlfriend. And after that SAY WHAT? I saw her at the showcase, screaming away. I regretted so much that I should have fainted as well. We got closer to the gate and that was when I still had some hope left. The guards wanted to close the gate but LOL they cant just coz we were all pushing. I know I was pushing real hard elbowing everyone. The damn guard scolded me in Cantonese. I cant be bothered.
The stage back drop
and TADA WE GOT IN. We were not very far from the stage nor very near to the stage. Compared to those behind me and those very close to the exit door, I shouldn't complain at all. Then came the host saying
"Stop pushing, BEAST will come out in a while. If you guys dont stop pushing, more people will start to faint. 36 people already fainted. "
Yeah, 36 fainted. So half of the 36 is already wide awake and they are at the crowd below you shouting. You dumbo. The girl behind me shouted through my ears (damn you my ears will never be the same again) saying
" We are in B2ST Tshirt and we are all the way behind, those without B2ST Tshirt are in front ! "
and with that, I turned and looked behind. HOLY SHIZZZZ. Everyone was in the B2ST Tshirt and they are all the way behind me. Some very close to the exit door. So please remind me again, that I shouldnt complain at all.
and THERE THEY ARE OHMYMYMYMYMYGODDD.
and BEAST CAME OUT ZOMGGGG.My heart stopped when they came out. I was just there standing like a statue with B2ST greeting me dancing away right in front of my face. I still couldnt believe that I saw them. Even till now. From there, the showcase started. All the screaming, tip-toeing, pushing. It was like a second war reflecting what happened earlier outside KL LIVE.
My dear joker are you digging your nose again ?! LOL ITS WOKAY ME STILL LOVE YOU.
They were so good looking I almost died. Like seriously. I was like FARKKKKK. Gikwang & Dongwoon & Junhyung and ALL OF THEM LAH OKAY was so handsome in real life you really gotta see it yourself. And Junhyung was wearing a V-neck T with his tattoo peeping through. and his tattoo on his arm OHMYGODDDDD ! and they were wearing my favourite colour. WHITE YES WHITE. They changed to red suits later on. IT WAS GODDAMN SEXYYYYYYY. Plus, joker SMILED and SMIRKED ! HOHMYGOD. I saw Yoseob's scar on his cheeks and MAKNAE. MAKNAE. The maknae that born on the same year with me. He look so Eurasian. Leader Doojoon gave major fanservice, I was so happy words cant describe. And lastly, Hyunseung. I feel bad for saying this, but I never looked at him T_____T I was looking at only Junhyung and Gikwang the whole time till I actually got back to my senses and told myself to "HEY LOOK AT OTHERS TOO"
Look at the amount of cameras. The notification saying cameras are not allowed is a freaking big lie. JUNKWANG♥♥♥ HOH MYGODDDDDDDDD I LOVE BOTH OF YOU TO BITS!♥♥ Their performance was beyond words. Their voices are as steady even though they have major difficult dance steps. They sound exactly like in the album. and SHIZZ JUNHYUNG'S RAP ZOMG. AND I GOT TO SEE THE MYSTERY HEAD BOBBING DANCE LIVE RIGHT IN FRONT OF MY FACE ! ngeeeeee :D That bitch that got to take picture with them
The ultimate bitch that got major fanservice from BEAST.
The last encore performance was EPIC. They sang a few songs in one go and they were just fooling around having fun. Doojoon gave several ahjussi face that got me spazzing like some sick child. And Hyunseung's solo dance when the other five monkeys were cheering for him saying " GO HYUNSEUNG! GO HYUNSEUNG! " and Kwang Kwang's DUMBKWANG FACE that I couldnt get over with. and I was just starring at joker. THE WHOLE TIME.
oh oh oh and I GOT TO SEE GI KWANG'S BARE ABS UP CLOSE. Yes you read right, BARE ABS BABY . BARE ABS. I told you so. (picture credits to Jason Ong) Clearest shot I took.
Then came the autograph session. Everyone ran to the right side of the stage to queue for the autograph session and below the stage was totally almost empty. So me and Vanna ran to the front of the stage. After the guards shoo-ed those media people off the stage, BEAST came out. All seated and ready for the autograph session. They were just sitting there looking down the stage not knowing what to do while waiting for the autograph session to kick start. I was just starring at Gikwang and I believe Vanna was starring real hard at Doojoon. Then it hit me and I thought "WTF WHY IS EVERYONE SO STUPID? NOBODY IS WAVING ?!"
I waved at Doojoon and Gikwang as they sat in the middle. and SAY WHAT. THEY WAVED BACK RIGHT AT ME AND VANNA! I was again, like a dumbo, standing there still not catching the fact that Gikwang just waved at me. Then came my senses and I cant stop smacking Vanna's arms saying "GI KWANG WAVED AT ME !!!!!" This was right after gikwang waved at me :) Dont believe me ? YOU ARE JUST JEALOUS. and yes, BE JEALOUS. BE VERY JEALOUS. OH. And I saw a Junhyung flag on the floor and I quickly took it. ITS FATE YOU SEE.
and from there, we left KL LIVE and headed home. Next day was the autograph session at Oneutama but I missed it. Long story. I need a punching bag whenever I think about it. BUT OH WELLS ITS WOKAY. at least I got to watch BEAST LIVE right in front of my face. Compared to those unfortunate ones that didnt even got in KL LIVE.
More pictures here. I took around 70 pictures and 19 fancams. As for fancams. Email or tag me personally if you wanna watch coz I know sharing the love wont kill. As Im not gonna post fancams here coz you can hear me shouting and screaming like a freak in those fancams. Or, Im just plain lazy lah LOL
To sum it up IM A HAPPY FAN GIRL. (yes, I wore my daebak bling bling glasses) Sore arms from holding up the camera for perfect shots, sore legs from tip toe-ing, sore neck from looking up all the time, sore throat from shouting and screaming, all the sweat, waiting, pushing, and being a bitch. It was all paid off, hence the BIG SMILE ON MY FACE HEEHEE It was one of the happiest day in my life :D I got to meet and watch BEAST LIVE and you didnt ! BOO YOU ! hahahah.
& I end my post with Junhyung's twitpic with Dongwoon and Yoseob's closing ceremony for Malaysia. Which is the night before they left Malaysia. and please do forgive me my dear readers if you dont understand some things in this post. That is just coz I cant really talk when I spazz.
*I've been reading more than 40 JunKwang, mainly Junhyung fics. I guess I can break the record of world most fics read in a day :D I realized I didnt blog about FT ISLAND fanmeeting ! Will do it soon ! :D
oh oh ! and I OFFICIALLY HATE 4MINUTE. HYUNA TO BE EXACT. YES FOR REAL. and its all because they are close to BEAST. Yes, call me unreasonable, ridiculous or whatever I give no mercy. BYEBYE ! :D
After many sleepless nights of twisting and turning on bed. After holding on to the calculator pressing and pressing to calculate my salary. After being panic. After being reaaaaaaally confused.
I have decided not to go for Kpop party. I realized I love clothes more than anything :/ YIKES ! Both me and Vanna decided that it was a uhmm good choice ? LOL Plus, I met BEAST before. Just that G.NA is the heart aching one :( Its really weird how "I turned into emo queen in the previous post because of this & I'm being all whateffs about this now ahahahah.
But, decisions made !
What now ? CANT WAIT TO GO SHOPPING !!!! TEEEHEE :)
New Years on the next post. I promise !
& lets just end it with a picture of me :) and you, its time for an end.
Why the sad face ? Might not be able to go for Digi Kpop Party :( No, not money problem. No, not transport problem. I can worry about that later. My greatest concern now is to get em tickets. Might not be able to attend this Sunday's launch at One Utama cause Vanna is probably working. So its really big change of not going.
Cause, Im afraid they only sell the ticks on Sunday and not any other day. and so, if I dont attend, high chance ticks will all be gone since the launch is from 12pm-8pm. Thats like the whole day.
Done crying. Gotta move on :( Think positive. Think positive. You met B2ST before Jane. You met Junhyung before.
Nuuuu, no one can understand. Come on, its BEAST and G.NA. Junhyung and G.NA's collab will rock the stage man and I aint gonna be there.
Oh wells, I dont know when this emo state will be over.
Things friends would do just to let you know that, you actually have a friend.
1. Remembering your birthday
2. Walks beside you even when the whole world shuts on you
3. Me : and.. the due date is tomorrow ? A : yeaaaah Me : whaaaaat ! A : Have you done anything ? Me : OMG NO. A : Nudge me in msn whenever you need help.
sometime later
*One new text message*
A : Hey Jane, I wont be online for the whole day today. Please call me if you need any help I'll be here.
4. Simple conversations that leaves you laughing with an aching tummy
5. Inside jokes (Somefink like GOOD MORNING TOWELS LOL )
6. When you share things
7. When you share secrets
8. Sleepovers
IM LAZY TO TYPE ANYMORE BUT THE LAST ONE WILL BE
9. WHEN THEY ARE THROWING ONE FREAKING HUGE PARTY SPECIALLY FOR YOU JUST COZ YOU ARE ONLY TURNING 19 ONCE.
Dont get what I mean ? Well, which friend of yours is actually willing to borrow you a house just for you when he or she will be in deep shit if anything happens ? and when I say deep shit, its freaking deep shit coz hey what are we talking about here ? A party with over 40 people invading your house. Alcohol involved. Need I go further ? I dont think so.
Plan your birthday in the mid of assignment due dates and getting excited about it.
Well I have friends like that because Im awesome like that nyaahahaha.
So in other words, THIS FRIDAAAAAAAAY. Be there or your missing out a whole lot. and I like how the beginning of this post is totally useless. HAHA YOU GOT ME.
and gosh IM REALLY SORRY. I didnt update on Malacca trip at all. Which happened in July. and its already October now wth. but the only thing Im looking forward to is 7th and 8th of October for now :D
and thats your blogger incase you forgot how the hell she looks like Sarawak was fun Brother's wedding went really well Assignments are still ughhh as annoying as ever
and the other important part of my life (lol ahahah) I cant take my breathe breathe breathe Im still loving junhyung, what are you gonna do about it hmm ? :D
Till the next post BYE BYE !
listening to
Seriously Leehom, I heard you are gay. The papers been saying people saw you in some gay bar. IT BETTER NOT BE TRUE COZ YOUR GODDAMN HOT.
Why hello there sleeping beauty. Lets wear our acid wash jeans together one day :) ahahah As the title says, like always, please be patient with me dear readers. University is REALLY being a pain in the ass. Semester 2 is pure torture. I thank god I fangirl-ed so much during the one and a half month semester break. But oh come on, its never enough. One day without a PC for fangirls = SUICIDE.
" You have no time to update your blog but you have all the time in the world to fangirl "
Exactly. You know me too well. Thats coz I rather fangirl than updating a blog that hardly anyone reads. Other than that, I cant wait to get my hands on G.Na's album MBLAQ just had their goodbye stage :( I'll miss Seungho so bad B2ST is having their comeback in September. Hence, the drastic change of hairstlye. Junbaby gone blonde. A very kind SG Beauty been subbing BEAST Idol Maid. You dont know how much I appreciate her hard work. Trust me, subbing was never an easy job. I know how it feels thats coz I used to sub Super Junior M variety shows, MVs and interviews when Im a subber in SuperJunior forum. Im at episode 13 for God of Study Im at episode 4 for Heading to the Ground and its stuck there since July I should stop shopping
& for now,
I should stop blabbering and start doing my mind map kthanksbai.
So basically GDE might bring SHINee or ZE:A. M.E is bringing MBLAQ. Sony is bringing 2PM. Marctensia might bring CN BLUE. SS501's hyungjun is comng too plus JayPark is coming with AOM and UMM has hinted at a double-bill event combining BEAST and 4minute. and and and ZOMG THE MEGA YEAR END BASH WITH KOREAN ACTS ZOMGASFDH...HJLLASDSA. Im so excited I could die. ASDSAFSDAF
So tell me what is this ?
I cant imagine what will happen to me if both Seungho and Junhyung appear right in front of my face.
LIFE IS GOOD !!! :DDDD
ps : I'll update about Malacca and PD Trip soon kay. Sorry my dear readers. Ok college starts tomorrow. How am I gonna sleep while being so excited ?! KYAAAAA again, LIFE IS DAEBAK ! :D
My right eye is swollen :( Can I kiss it ? Have you been reading my fan fics ?!!! YOU #%$^#$^&# !
LOL
HELLO thats me smiling like a retard out of overload of Kimchii. HAHAH.
After reading over 50 Junkwang and Junseung fics, I decided to write my own one. LOL yeah I cant believe it either. Wrote it during work out of boredom. I wrote it from a third person's point of view coz I've always love fics writing from a third person's point of view. So here is my very first fic written by myself TEEHEE.
(Copy-paste from forum lol Im lazy like that !) Author's Note : First and foremost, this is my VERY FIRST FIC. Compared to other super good fics I read before, Im still way behind time to catch up. Comments are much appreciated. I wrote this during work out of boredom. & I guess the B2ST fever in me still have not died down yet since the day I met them for the showcase. Hence, the formation of this fic. and yes, Junhyung is my ultimate bias. Lastly, drop a friendly comment and I'll give you chocolate ice cream ! :) heeeeee.
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‘Jun Hyung ah!,’ you scream with all your voice, your throat burning. ‘Run Hyo Rim ah ! Run ! Now ! ‘ was all you could hear from him. You couldn’t fight your tears anymore, no matter how hard you try to keep your promise to Jun Hyung, that you would not cry no more. This was the fifth time Jun Hyung got into a fight. Because of you.All because of you. You wish you had never met Jun Hyung because you feel like you are ruining every millisecond of his life. It was your entire fault. Always has been.
This boy, Yong Jun Hyung. You thought of all the flashbacks. You met him on the street. He was dancing with other street dancers out there. Every girl, crazy about him. Even in school. Even till now. All you remember was, he pops like a professional, almost like your idol, MBLAQ’s Yang Seung Ho. And from that day onwards, being at Apgujong street at 8pm sharp became your daily routine. Just like a Korean drama, the one that hardly anyone believes in, he noticed you from afar and both of you came in contact the very first time where he saved you from the pervert in the bus.
You felt something grabbing your lower body but you were too afraid to voice out for help. You were shaking in fear and all you did was move from where you were standing. You felt the touch again. Tears started forming. The bus came to a halt and you were pulled out of the bus with great force, your wrist hurt so much. And again you were too afraid to even scream. You couldn’t see the figure that pulled you out of the bus but his hand felt warm and you felt safe.
‘WHY DIDNT YOU SAY A THING ?!'You heard a voice yelling at you. You were still shaking, looking at the cement ground, sobbing real hard. ‘I..d...don’t..know’ was all you could utter.
You felt a pair of arms wrap themselves around you. You gave in even though he was a complete stranger because a hug was all you needed at that moment. You felt so safe that you wanted to stay like that forever, resting your head on his firm chest, listening to his soothing heartbeat.
‘Let me walk you home,’ he said. And since then, walking you home became a daily routine for him. You never asked why but he was just there. Always getting off two stops earlier to walk you home, almost always using‘I need to exercise’as an excuse. All you know was you, knowing him by Yong Jun Hyung, a sunbae in school. Someone you trust so much. Too much to even admit it.
All the memories, all the hugs, kisses, cookies, pikachus, morning calls, chocolates, theme parks, his ego and most importantly how much he got himself covered up with blood because of you. Again you reminded yourself, this was the fifth time that you were here, in the hospital, sitting by Junhyung’s side looking at him with all the bruises on his face, all the bandage, all the pain he went through. All because of you. You asked yourself, ‘This is the fifth time, just how many more to go Hyo Rim ah?’
You never hated your father much. Even after he left you, all alone. You never uttered a single word about his neglect towards you. Even when the loan sharks were after you, just because your father was nowhere to be found. You never slept in ease, always running, always hiding and begging for them to stop hitting Jun Hyung. Jun Hyung never failed to be there whenever you are screaming, running or hiding. He always knows when you are in trouble. He never fails to get himself hurt because of you. You can never bear to look at him being all covered with blood. You told him countless of times to leave you, but he never did. Never.Not even once.
You felt a thumb wiping your tears away from your cheeks and found Jun Hyung awake, trying hard to smile at you even though it hurts, because of the bruise near his lips. Before you could even utter a word, Jun Hyung placed his finger at your lips signaling you to remain silent.‘Never tell me to leave you again. Never,’said Jun Hyung.
More tears streamed down your face. You felt like the happiest girl, having Jun Hyung by your side.
Seungho is my favourite too, its impossible to leave him out LOL Its pretty short for a one-shot but I'll like to thank everyone who commented in respective forums ! I posted in Soompi, B2ST Rising, Soshified, Mysone and Absolute MBLAQ. Love all the response ! :) and also, thanks Vidya for editing it for me. Me love you and feel better kay :)
& whats a post without any of this Nothing much. Just that,
I CANT WAIT I CANT WAIT I CANT WAIT I CANT WAIT I CANT WAIT I CANT WAIT I CANT WAIT I CANT WAIT I CANT WAIT I CANT WAIT. CANNOT. I. CANNOT. WAIT. I SAY CANNOT LOL asdfghjkl SDGFSDGHGK. AND OMG ASDFGHJKL WTF BBQ I SENSE JUNKWANGGGGG ! zomg this is like a complete dejavu of me after watching MBLAQ's MV Teaser.
Yes. Just coz I love JunKwang that much. Sue me. LOL & even sleep deprive Junkachu look so good.
Thats it for now ! Im off for God of Study & Heading to the Ground and and and OHHH MY BEIJING FRIED RICE :)
Listening to
I had a major FML moment waiting for this full MV to be out. Other B2UTIES in B2ST Rising were telling me to head to bed and sleep & that Junhyung will be there once I wake up. Awwwwww LOL One of the many reasons I love friendly fans.
and OH I wanted to break G.NA's face but omg shes so awesome laaaaaa. Shes like a second Jang Ri In to me. Speaking of Jang Ri In, I miss her like hell. Lina too. Where have all of you been ?
Malacca & PD Trip coming up in next post ! :) BYE BYE everyone ! Dont forget to smile & be happy today ! LOL :)
I figured out its time for me to blog about BEAST showcase as promised. Since it happened two weeks ago. But hey, I did update a short one on it. LOL Coz I was too high on BEAST so it took me this long to actually blog about it and no, I'm not over with the B2ST fever yet. I dont know when it will be over or will it even be over LOL. Its a really long post ahead with my rants and complains about UMM other than my fangirling. I warned you.
The huge banner which I planned to steal. LOL FAIL.
Mini concert was on the 26th of June 2010. A Saturday. Which means I have work on that day. I texted my boss saying something came up and I cant work. She called me straight away saying I have to work because no one can replace me. So I was ready to lose my job for B2ST, although I love my job very much. Yes, thats how much I love BEAST. Go figure. But I guess its fate that another staff agreed to replace me. But boss told me the earliest I can leave is by 4pm. OH WELLS. So the day started off with me going to work. It was the SLOWEST 4 hours in my life. Clock strike 4pm. Grabbed my car keys and headed home. I was speeding at 110 cutting every cars with sudden change of lanes =/ VATEVAAAAA. Vanna came and pick me the moment I reached home. Met Kristin at the train station. Malaysian KTM suck balls. Train got delayed several times. So we waited and waited. We were worried shit. Concert is suppose to start at 7pm. By all means Malaysian time 7.30pm or 8pm. After transferring to Monorail and bla bla bla, we finally reached. andddd HOLY MOTHER OF COW. The crowd. I expected the amount of crowd but not that much. I guess its logical reflecting the total of 8000 votes from Malaysians to bring B2ST to Malaysia. Some waited from 6am. Well, I was suppose to be one of them if I dont have to work. Cis. Called Jason Goh of advertlets and collected my tickets. It was said before that those with B2ST Tshirt get to go in first and those without B2ST Tshirt will get to go in later. I scanned the crowd and there were no barriers nor poles to divide us dear B2UTIES. There wasnt even any queue. So basically, we were just one big mess. I swear we looked like a pile of shit for those looking from the airplane.
Try spotting me. Now you got what I mean by one big mess. ( picture credits to as mention in the picture )
We cut queue. Yes, we did. Leaving those Malay girls behind me giving me the cock stare. And so we waited and waited and waited. I lose count of how many hours I waited. All the pushing and smell and screaming.. It was 8pm and the gate was still not open. Everyone was chanting for refund. After that came the guard that said
" Those with B2ST Tshirt will go in first and those without the B2ST Tshirt will go in later. But if KL LIVE is full, Im sorry, you cant go in"
The moment I heard that, I was fighting with my tears. Me and my friends were those without the BEAST Tshirt. The gate was opened at around 8.30pm ? Where the concert is suppose to start at 7pm WTF. They let us go in pairs. They let some in and closed the gate and I swear waiting for the next time for them to open the gate took forever. I felt like half of my life was gone. My friends and I were quite behind, but not very behind. But I was already losing hope. My heart was in pieces ( LOL dramatic much ). Everyone was chanting for refund and I was just starring at my concert ticket thinking
" Ugh I dont want any refund, just let me see Gikwang & Junhyung please please please "
My concert ticket
Then came this part where I got really pissed. The part where EVERYONE started to faint. The thing is, if you faint, the guards will carry you in, which means you got in to KL Live without having to continue queuing. Ok fine, some girls fainted for real but some had really bad ass acting. There was this girl. She was "going to faint". One of the guards carried her and her sling bag slipped from her shoulder. She grabbed it before it hit the ground. Damnnn that was some damn fast reflex from you girlfriend. And after that SAY WHAT? I saw her at the showcase, screaming away. I regretted so much that I should have fainted as well. We got closer to the gate and that was when I still had some hope left. The guards wanted to close the gate but LOL they cant just coz we were all pushing. I know I was pushing real hard elbowing everyone. The damn guard scolded me in Cantonese. I cant be bothered.
The stage back drop
and TADA WE GOT IN. We were not very far from the stage nor very near to the stage. Compared to those behind me and those very close to the exit door, I shouldn't complain at all. Then came the host saying
"Stop pushing, BEAST will come out in a while. If you guys dont stop pushing, more people will start to faint. 36 people already fainted. "
Yeah, 36 fainted. So half of the 36 is already wide awake and they are at the crowd below you shouting. You dumbo. The girl behind me shouted through my ears (damn you my ears will never be the same again) saying
" We are in B2ST Tshirt and we are all the way behind, those without B2ST Tshirt are in front ! "
and with that, I turned and looked behind. HOLY SHIZZZZ. Everyone was in the B2ST Tshirt and they are all the way behind me. Some very close to the exit door. So please remind me again, that I shouldnt complain at all.
and THERE THEY ARE OHMYMYMYMYMYGODDD.
and BEAST CAME OUT ZOMGGGG.My heart stopped when they came out. I was just there standing like a statue with B2ST greeting me dancing away right in front of my face. I still couldnt believe that I saw them. Even till now. From there, the showcase started. All the screaming, tip-toeing, pushing. It was like a second war reflecting what happened earlier outside KL LIVE.
My dear joker are you digging your nose again ?! LOL ITS WOKAY ME STILL LOVE YOU.
They were so good looking I almost died. Like seriously. I was like FARKKKKK. Gikwang & Dongwoon & Junhyung and ALL OF THEM LAH OKAY was so handsome in real life you really gotta see it yourself. And Junhyung was wearing a V-neck T with his tattoo peeping through. and his tattoo on his arm OHMYGODDDDD ! and they were wearing my favourite colour. WHITE YES WHITE. They changed to red suits later on. IT WAS GODDAMN SEXYYYYYYY. Plus, joker SMILED and SMIRKED ! HOHMYGOD. I saw Yoseob's scar on his cheeks and MAKNAE. MAKNAE. The maknae that born on the same year with me. He look so Eurasian. Leader Doojoon gave major fanservice, I was so happy words cant describe. And lastly, Hyunseung. I feel bad for saying this, but I never looked at him T_____T I was looking at only Junhyung and Gikwang the whole time till I actually got back to my senses and told myself to "HEY LOOK AT OTHERS TOO"
Look at the amount of cameras. The notification saying cameras are not allowed is a freaking big lie. JUNKWANG♥♥♥ HOH MYGODDDDDDDDD I LOVE BOTH OF YOU TO BITS!♥♥ Their performance was beyond words. Their voices are as steady even though they have major difficult dance steps. They sound exactly like in the album. and SHIZZ JUNHYUNG'S RAP ZOMG. AND I GOT TO SEE THE MYSTERY HEAD BOBBING DANCE LIVE RIGHT IN FRONT OF MY FACE ! ngeeeeee :D That bitch that got to take picture with them
The ultimate bitch that got major fanservice from BEAST.
The last encore performance was EPIC. They sang a few songs in one go and they were just fooling around having fun. Doojoon gave several ahjussi face that got me spazzing like some sick child. And Hyunseung's solo dance when the other five monkeys were cheering for him saying " GO HYUNSEUNG! GO HYUNSEUNG! " and Kwang Kwang's DUMBKWANG FACE that I couldnt get over with. and I was just starring at joker. THE WHOLE TIME.
oh oh oh and I GOT TO SEE GI KWANG'S BARE ABS UP CLOSE. Yes you read right, BARE ABS BABY . BARE ABS. I told you so. (picture credits to Jason Ong) Clearest shot I took.
Then came the autograph session. Everyone ran to the right side of the stage to queue for the autograph session and below the stage was totally almost empty. So me and Vanna ran to the front of the stage. After the guards shoo-ed those media people off the stage, BEAST came out. All seated and ready for the autograph session. They were just sitting there looking down the stage not knowing what to do while waiting for the autograph session to kick start. I was just starring at Gikwang and I believe Vanna was starring real hard at Doojoon. Then it hit me and I thought "WTF WHY IS EVERYONE SO STUPID? NOBODY IS WAVING ?!"
I waved at Doojoon and Gikwang as they sat in the middle. and SAY WHAT. THEY WAVED BACK RIGHT AT ME AND VANNA! I was again, like a dumbo, standing there still not catching the fact that Gikwang just waved at me. Then came my senses and I cant stop smacking Vanna's arms saying "GI KWANG WAVED AT ME !!!!!" This was right after gikwang waved at me :) Dont believe me ? YOU ARE JUST JEALOUS. and yes, BE JEALOUS. BE VERY JEALOUS. OH. And I saw a Junhyung flag on the floor and I quickly took it. ITS FATE YOU SEE.
and from there, we left KL LIVE and headed home. Next day was the autograph session at Oneutama but I missed it. Long story. I need a punching bag whenever I think about it. BUT OH WELLS ITS WOKAY. at least I got to watch BEAST LIVE right in front of my face. Compared to those unfortunate ones that didnt even got in KL LIVE.
More pictures here. I took around 70 pictures and 19 fancams. As for fancams. Email or tag me personally if you wanna watch coz I know sharing the love wont kill. As Im not gonna post fancams here coz you can hear me shouting and screaming like a freak in those fancams. Or, Im just plain lazy lah LOL
To sum it up IM A HAPPY FAN GIRL. (yes, I wore my daebak bling bling glasses) Sore arms from holding up the camera for perfect shots, sore legs from tip toe-ing, sore neck from looking up all the time, sore throat from shouting and screaming, all the sweat, waiting, pushing, and being a bitch. It was all paid off, hence the BIG SMILE ON MY FACE HEEHEE It was one of the happiest day in my life :D I got to meet and watch BEAST LIVE and you didnt ! BOO YOU ! hahahah.
& I end my post with Junhyung's twitpic with Dongwoon and Yoseob's closing ceremony for Malaysia. Which is the night before they left Malaysia. and please do forgive me my dear readers if you dont understand some things in this post. That is just coz I cant really talk when I spazz.
*I've been reading more than 40 JunKwang, mainly Junhyung fics. I guess I can break the record of world most fics read in a day :D I realized I didnt blog about FT ISLAND fanmeeting ! Will do it soon ! :D
oh oh ! and I OFFICIALLY HATE 4MINUTE. HYUNA TO BE EXACT. YES FOR REAL. and its all because they are close to BEAST. Yes, call me unreasonable, ridiculous or whatever I give no mercy. BYEBYE ! :D
days grow longer and as the time goes by, things are taking their change.
may love remain no matter how the weather change.
may love remain no matter how tough the life may be.
may love remain no matter how cruel the reality is.
